Reflection

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go; Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same...Flavia Weedn"

Saturday, September 18, 2010

My Love Story


Do you know about love??? Sometimes it’s so hard, but sometimes it so nice and I really like this feeling. Your heart will beat faster when you saw someone you love...

Actually, I also have someone who I love....I really love him.... Firstly I’m not sure whether I’m really love him or not, but after lose him, I really sure I can’t life without him. That why, I want to remind you, if you love someone please make sure you keep it until the end. Please do not do a stupid thing like what I’ve done. It will make your regret whole in your life. Sometime, we try to be the best couple in this world but, we still don’t know what was happening in our future.

When I in Upper 6 (High school)...I’ve offer from Kolej Tun Datu Haji Bujang to futher my study's. I've to go with my friend because my parents can’t come with me...that was really sad time, but I already know to live independence. That so hard because my result in science side not so well, so I need to transfer to other school was offer an art. Then I've to transfer to school in Bintulu area. Bintulu is my towns and I love it. 

The word I always remember is “Sekolah pun mahu di Bintulu jugak, nanti kawin dengan orang Bintulu jugak” my teacher's said. In that time my friend and i just laughing heard that word. I really don’t think I’ll fall in love with someone who lives at Bintulu. Because I know, one day I will go out from Bintulu. And that true, now I’m not at Bintulu...but at Perak, Peninsular Malaysia. See...I’ll be there!!

I don’t know, the first time at my new school was changing my life in future....sadness or happiness?? Still don't know...
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The story was begun 5 year ago...I’ve fall in love with someone whom said he love me.

He make a promise, what was happen he will be there stay with me....but now it’s over... should play the song by Gerath Gates ?? Say it isn’t so.... My beloved give me this song and hope that will be better in our future's...so say it isn’t so. Yeah...sometime I always hope nothing was happen and until the end, we will live happily ever after.


My request is it so hard?? I always hope I’ll be at your side until the end. But now I’ll change my minds. It so much better if I love you although I don't live with you because one day you see me and will say “That She, whom loves me so much”. I’m so proud if you know about that...

Although you leave me alone, and find a new love...I always hope you always happy with your life. There is no reason I hate you because I love you more then I love myself. That sound so funny right??? That who I am...haha


I’m crazy because I love you...
If you hate me, you can shoot me, please make sure you don’t shoot my heart's because that yours inside. So many things were happen in these 5 years, so many until I also can’t remind it one by one...but I still remember that. Our love was beginning at 19, 08.05...and 19 mean 15 + 4 (that is our birthday). I always hope we will get married at 19...December because we were born in this month. So funny I’m...

Our relationship...so far so good, but our happy days can't stay until the end...So many trouble was happen one by one, we can’t handle that problem and that make our choose to break up. It’s really no way for us to settle this problem?? I already choose you and no matter what was happen I will forgive you because I’m also not a perfect one. But you choose to go.....

That really make me sad, I was cried and cried because I don’t let you go. I know that is my faults, and I’m so sorry...to make you in trouble. 


In the future...I really don’t know what was happen, still blurring and I thought you so happy with your new life. If you happy with her, so why should I ask you to stay with me?? Because the important thing is your happiness is my happiness.
Still loving you...


2 comments:

  1. nice... yur love story make me cry odelia.. even though i know it. God is merciful and generous.. May b God have something good than b4 for u.. so believe him. I have same experience in love likes you. I know you know better what's happening. Now, I am no longer sad and cry as six months ago because my heart is now owned by someone that i luv, you knoe it. Honestly,I never even meet him, but it really made me quite excited and throbbing (that love) gosshhh.. now I m really love him..... I also hope he has a same feelings with me ^_^. More than I love him(My hope). Appreciate people around you, who love u a lot. love those who love you. *_*

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  2. Yes..Thanks you Crystall because you could understand what was happen...that is sad story right...?? I also hope I'll find a new love, I never hate a love although its already make me cry because I know that its gift from God, he know what the best for me...Although I don't know what was happen in my future's, but I still have a dream to get a true love...who is that man?? Only God have a answer....just wait and see.. I'll try to appreciate someone who take care for me...because it better we live with someone who love us, right?? thanks Crystall...hopefully you will live happily ever after with that guy hehe...May God bless you..

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